She is beautiful and known for her angelic smile, but Christina Milian recently broke through her surface image and shared her very personal and very painful account of domestic abuse when she was a teenager.
The 34-year-old New Jersey native recently opened up to Huffington Post about her own past battle with domestic violence and how she feared for her life with her abuser/partner at the tender age of 18.
Statistics say that 1 in 4 women in America will experience domestic violence in their lifetime, with women ages 18-34 being the greatest at risk.
Milian says her mother said,
“Love shouldn’t hurt!”
But it seems like it took a lot of hurt (both physical and mental) to really believe mama after all.
The recording artist certainly took transparency a little deeper with her revelation and account of having been a victim in this interview. Opening up nearly 16 years later, Milian even shared the frightening tale of staring down the barrel of a gun more than once.
Now she’s hoping to inspire other women who’ve fallen victim to domestic violence after her own saving grace came from taking notes from another survivor.
The mother of one admits that admitting it to family and friends eventually became therapy and led to escape.
“I lost my spirituality; I didn’t know how to pray but when I started having conversations with God again and being honest with myself, that’s when I began to understand who I was again,” says Milian. (Won’t He do it?)
Milian, whose E! hit reality show Christina Milian Turned-Up shares most facets of her life to the world, constantly engages her almost 2,000,000 followers on Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook.
Recalling the danger of being with her abuser, Milian said,
“One time he played Russian Roulette on me. He put one bullet in a gun and pointed it at my face. When you have a gun in your face, all you can think about is your family and people who love you. Also, I didn’t think that if I went for help he would receive treatment or even be arrested.
Another time, he nearly killed me. I woke up to him choking me to the point I was barely able to scream out…I still didn’t know where to go. Your daily life is: ‘How am I going to survive? But I love this man. I can’t live without him but I can’t live with him.’ I was so torn.”
As a passionate advocate against domestic violence, a survivor of domestic violence, a lecturer on the topic, and a journalist, Milian wanted to exclusively share her story to help others.
“My experience happened when I was 18 and I’ve been holding on to this for too long. I lived in fear for a long time. I’m here to save someone. I really want to help other people, especially the youth,” says Milian.